and in this world
Reference of Audio: [I] — Hiroyuki Sawano
To listen and find reason in the speech of man is the greatest vulnerability in mankind. The premise introduced is a personal belief; flawed in some ways but pursued by me — I believe it nonetheless. Despite the great many defects of the seven deadly sins bestowed by one who has many names, none of them can compete with pride.
Pride is a disease; for all that matters in mere conversation — the obscure vanity of a certain figure that shapes one’s character can be distinguished with the entitled, so-called self-love.
With the opening chapter, I had some thoughts about whether humanity is capable of a nature that causes harm not to others but to oneself; the necessity of ego. In this aspect, my very own careful assumption — ego is the root of all selfish desires for oneself.
Examining from my personal experience — an interlude to my endeavors to understand the complexity of man to establish a barrier, set highly to limit the capability of one of the reasons we breathe the air that we do. We tend to boast ourselves in lament of the days that have gone by, which were excruciatingly difficult, and to shield our nature of love with the highest esteem of ego.
To love is to let go — to let go of all comfort in the face of discomfort. I have to confess; at times, my mind and my heart do not position tightly on this concept; but so many others think as highly as I do. There you go, a form of pride in the narrator; for I am also sinful of the pride I cursed so silently.
But to find affection in others; for many years — I have learned to give in to my barriers and decapitate them out of my mind. For as long as I live; I find no desire in love with pride.
I would exempt my thoughts from the audience; for such, through many hours of reading, watching, and consuming the addiction of media to pursue knowledge and understanding — there is one silver lining in all of this.
My love was always driven by the capacity of my grief. But the energy beam towards certain subjects; lovers, family, and friends — has been disapproving otherwise.
They are consumed by their poison — which negates their ability to compromise on their pride to speak out their strong opinions on how the world works; they tend to forget to simply listen and find reason through understanding.
You may know that you find no love from many as you reject the voice of others in comparison to your own. I believe it to be a foolish struggle to cage the soul of freedom of an innocent child that resides within you.
As you nest upon the fortress you build with an echo that is your voice, you are all empty and alone. To what pleasure do you have for yourself as you terminate these emotions in the face of a great evil that you consider love?
For all that I’ve said, I grieve with you as well. As I said — I am conscious of my vanity in some manner of this idea. The likelihood for me to build a chamber of my own; to some extent — very possible. Yet, the difference between you and I; is simply having the ability to listen and understand. You will find this idea both ignorant and naive, but I assure you — I have never been more alive to be free from the cage that once imprisoned me.
Be free, my audience — for one; you will succumb to a great deal of sadness if you do not. The first step to enlightenment I gave to myself is to give in to my pride as I pound the desire to prioritize my ego on the aspect of love.
Until one day; you will have the ability to find the compassion to give without a single drop of pride in you.
15:20–22nd of January 2024
